Blame it on the alcohol (BLOG)

I grew up in houses with full bars and easy access. We even had beer on tap. Drinking was not a big deal because it was so customary to our family. I remember going to school drunk in 7th grade. My family system was falling apart and I knew chaos was coming so I told myself “fuck it”. I don’t consider myself having an alcohol problem but I did consider my relationship to alcohol a problem.

Nights out could end in tears. I was numbing myself to avoid one feeling only to be igniting a whole other set of emotions I didn’t understand. Days spent feeling like shit, making choices based on those feelings, which led to more feeling like shit. Notice the cycle here? Treating myself to a glass of wine or a few mimosas turned into 5 or 6 drinks and then shots! I’m famous for trying to buy an entire bar Irish car bombs on many of occasions. For a petite person, this is not a good look. The momentary fun I would have inevitably lead to major regret the next day at something I said or some dumbass antic. Blackout Betty became my nickname for myself. I would rack my brain piecing together the previous day.

Everywhere you look alcohol is being shoved down our throats. Had a bad day? You deserve a drink! Had a good day? You deserve a drink! Fight with your partner? You deserve a drink! Hate your job? You deserve a drink! Notice the cycle here? I needed to find another way to celebrate or calm down. I love walking so much so that was a natural starting point. It not only moves emotions through my body but it keeps me fit (win win). I also love hot yoga, seeing a great concert or taking a new class. All things used to not have money for but after I ditched pricey cocktails I did.

I’ve established a new deal with booze. If I want a drink one day I’ll have one and I’m not concerned at overdoing it or anything but so far I haven’t wanted one. I’ve tried, trust me mama loves a good craft cocktail but my body is not into it. I woke up about 2 years ago or so and knew I was done with hard drinking. I swapped alcohol with green juice and my body has thanked me profusely for it with brighter skin, more energy, less anxiety, less depressive feelings, less pounds, less stomach pain and god knows what else. What’s your relationship with booze these days? Message me or comment below I'd love to hear from you!